words that work

so it's been a while bloggers. sorry. but i am back. why didn't i write in here. i might say... no time. but you ultimately make time for what we want, right.
thats why i work so much.
huh aim.
little joke between best friends. who i miss dearly. i saw her. it was good. i miss her. i don't know if people understand. i don't think anyone understands missing someone in the same way. it doesn't make sense. in my head it does.
i was cleaning instruments today. and people might think it's boring. but no one is in the room with me, so naturally i just stand there and think. if you're lucky you'll walk in and catch me laughing, thinking of a recent memory (example: today. visualizing me and amy hall singing to kc and jo jo... what?) or a joke but i was thinking today and i was like.. everyones life is moving. isn't that weird. like.. eventually all my sisters are going to be graduated. i will graduate... my brother will go on a mission... and my friends, yes yes, all of them... every.last.one.of.them. are getting married. its just weird. this growing up thing. and yet, i still feel like i am 11, having my birthday party.... or still playing with courtney imhoff.
so rosie odonell is no longer on the view.
tear.
i don't like her.
i am going to florida in may. i am excited. massages, facials.... tanning. all week long. i will miss my LOVE JANIS (janis joplin play that i have been counting down for...) and i haven't told amy yet. i am nervous.
this weekend:
friday night... na's band is playing. i know what you're thinking... of course na is in a band. every boy in high school is in a band. but his is good. it's name is PAWN TAKES KING. i like it. he explained it to me. that's an illegal move in chess.
but then again, you're bloggers. you all knew that.
saturday i am going on a gas station run with amy (this whole blog has been about her, eh) we make our rounds to different gas stations looking for chic-o-sticks.
al.
and then going to rae laney's softball game.
it'll be a good weekend.
don't worry kids...
i'm back for real this time.